I was not mentally prepared for what my body after baby would look like. It’s one thing to see other people’s bodies postpartum, but another thing entirely to see yourself.
Being pregnant is rough. In my opinion, it’s worse than the actual labor and delivery part. First, you start off not being able to eat and living with your head in the toilet. Then you’re too tired to function. Then your belly grows to the size of a beach ball, but it weighs more like a bowling ball. You have elephant ankles, toes the size of sausages and you look like you were attacked by a tiny velociraptor. All of that really takes a toll on your body, but I didn’t realize how much until Mara came out and I could really assess the changes.
Before I got pregnant I had a really good fitness run. I was going to the gym on a regular basis, running and working with a trainer (one of the gym perks). It showed me that I was capable of a lot more than I ever really thought that I could be. I even ran a 10k, which was something I NEVER thought I’d pull off or enjoy. Then I pulled a muscle in my back and was laid up for a few weeks and then I lost a pregnancy. The first thing to go was exercise and healthy habits. I started eating pizza every day and sitting on the couch every night with the ice cream carton in my lap. These new, poor habits meant that when I did get pregnant I was not as fit as I could have been and had even less motivation to exercise. So I didn’t. In fact, I think the only reason I didn’t gain a ridiculous amount of weight while pregnant is because I spent 20+ weeks vomiting. I was only making up for lost calories and fat!
I didn’t realize that even though my weight gain was basically “all baby” that my body after baby would not simply go back to what it was. I didn’t realize that none of my pre-pregnancy clothes would fit me. And I especially was not expecting to feel like the Saggy, Baggy Elephant when I looked in the mirror. I’ve been comforting myself with the fact that I did just have a baby, but it’s hard.
I just want to feel in shape and healthy again. I also don’t want to go spend $$$ on a bunch of new clothes when the clothes I have are perfectly fine. I’m getting tired of yoga pants and maternity leggings! I’m ready for shorts and sundresses again!
So, with all of that being said, it’s time for me to get back to forming healthy habits again. I wont have access to the gym like I did before, but I can still do everything that I was doing before from home. I’m going to start running again using a program to ease myself back into it. I’m also going to start a weight routine slowly building myself back up to 10-15 lb. weights. And I’m going to change my eating habits. For me, the best way to do that is following rules similar to the Whole Life Challenge. I will spend 80 days on a fairly strict eating plan and then slowly reintegrate other foods in. This gets my body prepped for eating healthy, keeps my junk cravings down, and basically acts as a cleanse (but WAY less extreme). I will post bi-weekly (or monthly) updates, some of my workouts and recipe ideas.
I hope this body after baby post doesn’t come across as rude, self-degrading or negative in any way. I’m just thinking that other women out there have experienced what I’m going through, or are about to go through it themselves. I’m not a fitness model mom, I’m just an average lady. I want to show others that you can get fit and not look like a fitness model. That you can get fit without spending a ton of money on a pyramid scheme or gym membership. That you dont have to dedicate hours to working out every day. And that you can eat healthy but still have delicious food without that much more effort. And most importantly, that wine and chocolate should always still have a place in your life.
**I’m not a health or fitness professional. Please talk to your doctor before starting any kind of fitness routine or diet.**