Hey there! Long time no blog. I never intend to take these long hiatuses, but sometimes they are necessary for my self-care. I’ve been doing a lot of self-care lately, but not in the day at the spa kind of way. More so just trying to keep myself alive (how’s that for meladramatic?) For those of you that don’t have any idea what I’m talking about I’m PREGNANT. We announced it via social media around Christmas.
I’m now 18 weeks along and feeling like a human again. A slightly rounder human, but a human none the less. Like with my pregnancy with Mara the first 14-15 weeks were not easy. I suffered from a lot of nausea and vomiting, and eating anything in general was a miserable ordeal. I also had a lot of emotional issues in the beginning. This pregnancy was a psuedo-surprise. What I mean by that is that it took awhile to conceive Mara, so I assumed it would be a similar situation the second time around. It wasn’t. And the quick turn-around time caught me a little off guard. I didn’t feel prepared to be pregnant, which made those early weeks a little rougher. Then there was the guilt. The waiting time and miscarriage before Mara came around had me grateful at every little piece of pregnancy. This time I was less enthralled with the whole process (which made me feel guilty and terrible). I also felt guilty for all the time I spent laying on the couch rather than playing with Mara or taking her to the park. She watched a LOT of tv those first few months and was definitely bored. So basically I was sick and felt like I was failing both of my kids. I don’t write any of this for head pats or sympathy, just putting it out there. Especially if any other second (or more) time mothers have felt this way. I always like to hear the good, the bad and the ugly because it makes me feel less alone in my bad and uglies. Also, please know that I don’t take my pregnancies or ability to get pregnant for granted. I am so grateful for my kiddos and my ability to carry them.
We will be finding out if Baby #2 is a girl or boy in February and then it will be time to get started on nursery plans! I have a few ideas, but I’m trying not to think about it too much until after we know. Jesse’s current office will be the new nursery, so we will have to do a lot of rearranging of furniture and things to make room. I’m super excited to get started on all of it! Nothing makes a pregnancy feel more real than giving the baby a name and preparing a space for them. Well, except for when they start kicking you in the middle of the night or birth. But at this point it’s the name part.
In the meantime, I’ve been taking advantage of my feeling better and started socializing with friends again. I’m returning to my old routine of going out with a friend at least once a week, which makes me feel so refreshed and recharged. I’m 100% extroverted, so I need to spend time with people to really feel my best. Mara and I have also been going out during the week. We now have a membership to the local children’s museum, so I take her there to get out a lot of energy. There’s also story time at the local library and play dates with friends. She’s definitely happier, and napping better, now that we get out and adventure a little more. I’m really hoping we have a warm Spring so that we can spend a lot of time outside before the baby comes in June.
I’d really like to say that there’s been more going on with us, but that’s been about it. With me returning to normal I will be returning to blogging and posting on social media, so you can catch up with me there! I won’t be blogging “bumpdates” really, but I do plan on posting them on Instagram. I’m going to try hard to fight that “second child” stuff, though I am already behind. Ooops!
I hope you have a great week! And if you’re still here, thanks so much for reading!